Lost soul.. my original Hindi draft n English translation...

Yaaron main chalaa

Jab main na rahun,
Na rahein meri yaadein,
Tamanna hai bas itni,
Meri maut kisi ke bhi aansu na barsaa de.
Agar mere baad kuchh reh jaaye,
Bas aasha hai yehi,
Antim ghadi mein mile na mile,
Mere dost meri nibhaayi hui dosti na bhula de.
Zindagi ne hai sau dukh diye,
Gamo k is bandhan ne ek raah dikhaai,
In baadalo ka sahra baandh hu nikal para,
Aansuo ki ye barsaat kahin mujhe na mita de.
Hoon yahaan par bas itne hi pal,
Jab tak jannat par na pad jaye kadam,
Kitni hi saanse reh gayi hai zahan mein,
Jite ji to nahi marne k baad sab na bhula de.
Jo vaada kar raha hoon,
Usey hamesha hi nibhaata rahunga,
Mar jaane se main bhale dagmagaa jaau,
Jo maut hai mann mein,
vo hasratein hi na mitaa de.
Kaafila hai nikal paraa,
Mere janaaze mein shamil hain mere dost,
Unke aankho se jhalakte us pyaar ka sailaab,
Kahin vo meri rooh hi ko na rula de.
Hai yeh meri antim ghadi,
Kavita nahi dil likh rahaa hoon,
Zindagi ka yeh ojhal ho raha ujaala,
Kahin mujhe alvida kehne se pehle hi na sula de..



Translation:

Bon adieu

When i shall have been gone,
nor shall remain my memories,
i leave this world capturing the only desire,
Let no one cry beside my funeral pyre.

If i leave anything behind me,
there's only one thing i aspire,
they meet or don't as i breathe my last,
my friends don't forget our friendship's forlorn cast.

My life has rewarded me sufferings untold,
in this pain a lit path beholds,
i walk beyond a crown of clouds over my head,
may not this storm of tears wipe me off instead.

I remain here for only those few moments,
until i step on the doors of heaven,
i know not how many breaths in me i have left,
though lost when alive, am not forgotten in death.

I stand here making a promise carved on stone,
a burden i shall hold in my heart always,
however unsteady i become as i cross over to the other side,
the death i seek will not destroy all what in my heart resides.

Out there on the street goes my funeral walk,
a sea of faces as my friends follow on,
the waves of love dropping from their eyes,
i hope is not for what my spirit cries.

Here i stand in my last moment,
i say i wrote my heart, not a mere poem,
i pray that this dimming light of my life,
doesn't make me sleep befor i get to say goodbye...