Did it, finally i did,
in my lonesome heart,
for long, which i had hid.
The two consequences i face,
the constant pain in my heart,
is what that keeps me out of a daze.
i hope for the best as i always can,
but the comedy called my life, as ever,
will inflict it's wounds like a wronged man.
i wait for the reply which i know will be no,
yet a small fickle of hope beckons from somewhere,
saying, "See my lad, don't worry! be happy! I told you so"
*******--------*******
The Anticipation
The hardest part is not the words,
nor are the butterflies in the stomach even close,
the hardest part is the wait,
will you be happy, or will life make you morose.
A watched pot never boils, they say,
but they never tell you what to do,
you stay awake for days on end,
waiting for the dark sky to turn, once again blue.
It's painful to be at a loss,
not knowing what turn life will take,
you can only hope for the best,
for you, for her and for everyone's sake...
******--------******
The Rejection
Your fate always comes around and bites you,
your stench, well that always smites you,
everything you stand for, but let fall,
will haunt you for your days all.
I promised myself i'll never be sad,
never go for things i never could have had,
but all i am left with, for all those spent miles,
are just a bunch of unknown fake smiles.
The stupidity of my life, the everlasting smile,
i am glad it makes spending time with me worthwhile,
but when you spend time smiling for so long,
No-one understands when your life goes all wrong.
i hope, no, i better know, what i must do hereon,
i pray that i find that one, long lost song,
its gone, its over, its finished for the last time,
Lord! i believe now i am all yours, and you all mine.
